Havent posted in a while. I had another health scare. It never really ends. More having to wait in cold rooms. Talking to doctors that obviously got up on the wrong side of the bed that morning. Geting stabbed by needles. Drawing more blood. Lying on cold tables. Taking scans.
& again. Still nothing. It all relates back to diet. Eat more of this. Eat more of that. Less of this. Less of that. If I knew how to eat properly would I be in this mess?
I hope this is the end of this all. It takes alot of strength in my opinon to make yourself change. But thats just what I have to do. I have to listen to someone else. And not be so stubborn.Ive tried to change before and failed. So im lacking motivation. Gonna have to pull the big guns out.
Talent. Ive been pondering it lately. I havent got anything that I can do better then anyone else. I havent got anything that I can do well. I guess its stupid of me to complain. Because Im the only one that can make me develop these talents. But I dont know what to do. Photography. Everyone tries that and im sure im not going to be better then all of them. Dancing. I would litterally kill to be able to dance. But im not well enough/fit enough to train. So dancings out of the question. Singing? BAH! Dying cows sound BETTER then me. Ill find something. And Ill make it me.
Till then ill just have fun being me.
Which as a matter of fact is pretty aweomse without the special talent. I like my job. I love my friends. I have a great family. Gigs are coming up. Im happy again.
I seriously have the most amazing people in my life that I am so thankful for.
It makes me teary just thinking about those amazing people and how much they are there for me. Words cant even express how I feel about them.
Thats enough now.
xoxo
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